I
fell off, let's face it...I plummeted off, my weight loss journey when
life threw me way too many curve balls at one time over the past 6
months that I just couldn't handle. I felt like every time the sun was
starting to shine, I got hit by another storm. This storm being worst
than the last one. I truly felt like November 2002 through February 2004
was hitting me all over again. So what did I do, I shut down, I threw
away everything that I knew would help me and I went for food. I know
that stress/emotional eating is my thing and I have to figure out a way
to get that under control. Normally I could just go for a run or do an
intense workout and that need to stress or emotionally eat would be
gone. But I haven't been exercising either. I've been a mess and trying
to hide it when I should have been the woman I've always been and told
it to "fuck off"! I've been struggling with myself to get back into gear
and I knew that I needed to wait until I was mentally ready.
I read something while on vacation and it made so much sense to me. Someone posted an article about preparing for weight loss. It was so simple that I pretty much bopped myself on the head like the "shoulda had a V8" commercials from back in the day and then laughed at myself. It's amazing to me what makes a person wake up and figure out what they should have been doing. And in my case I should have said "fuck it" and done what I needed to do to get myself back to where I want to me. Instead I stood in the dark thinking that if I don't think about it, it isn't really happening. GUESS WHAT?!??!?!?!?! It happened!
I don't need to be a "thin mint" as I like to call all the skinny folks out there in the world. I don't need to be a certain size or a certain weight. I just need to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to be able to look in the mirror and smile back at myself saying "you look good" and know that I feel the same as I look.
Well I'm now mentally ready to tackle all the different facets of my life and get back on the trail. Whether that be a running trail, a bike trail, a hiking trail, or wherever my mind and heart lead me. The start of my trail will be the first step I take forward.
I know how I should eat, I know what I should eat, I even know when I should eat. I just haven't been doing it. I had many times over the past few months where my blood sugars just went crazy. Well today, my last day of vacation, I shopped, chopped, cooked, and prepared the food I need to keep me on my "trail" for this week. I'm going to continue to do this every Sunday as my ritual.
Over the next few months I want to try some new things to keep my exercise routine fresh and to not do the same things all the time. I have plenty of videos, a workout bench (I need to figure out which exercises I should be doing), my bathing suit, 2 great pair of running shoes, and my bike. There's no way I can run another full marathon and as much as I would like to make that my goal I'm not. I truly feel that my feet took so long to heal after the full marathon last year that it started my downward spiral. This is NOT an excuse but a realization that in order to keep myself on track I need to not over do it. So instead of making a huge goal like I had last year my goal this year will be simple! I'm going to look in the mirror ever day and SMILE! I'm going to do my best to be the best me I can be. And if that "best me" comes with losing weight and feeling better in my own skin that that's what I need.
So tonight after I put the kids to bed I am not going to sit on the couch, I'm not going to sit in front of my laptop, I'm going to head out for a walk, a run, or maybe even a bike ride. Whatever strikes me at that time.
I read something while on vacation and it made so much sense to me. Someone posted an article about preparing for weight loss. It was so simple that I pretty much bopped myself on the head like the "shoulda had a V8" commercials from back in the day and then laughed at myself. It's amazing to me what makes a person wake up and figure out what they should have been doing. And in my case I should have said "fuck it" and done what I needed to do to get myself back to where I want to me. Instead I stood in the dark thinking that if I don't think about it, it isn't really happening. GUESS WHAT?!??!?!?!?! It happened!
I don't need to be a "thin mint" as I like to call all the skinny folks out there in the world. I don't need to be a certain size or a certain weight. I just need to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to be able to look in the mirror and smile back at myself saying "you look good" and know that I feel the same as I look.
Well I'm now mentally ready to tackle all the different facets of my life and get back on the trail. Whether that be a running trail, a bike trail, a hiking trail, or wherever my mind and heart lead me. The start of my trail will be the first step I take forward.
I know how I should eat, I know what I should eat, I even know when I should eat. I just haven't been doing it. I had many times over the past few months where my blood sugars just went crazy. Well today, my last day of vacation, I shopped, chopped, cooked, and prepared the food I need to keep me on my "trail" for this week. I'm going to continue to do this every Sunday as my ritual.
Over the next few months I want to try some new things to keep my exercise routine fresh and to not do the same things all the time. I have plenty of videos, a workout bench (I need to figure out which exercises I should be doing), my bathing suit, 2 great pair of running shoes, and my bike. There's no way I can run another full marathon and as much as I would like to make that my goal I'm not. I truly feel that my feet took so long to heal after the full marathon last year that it started my downward spiral. This is NOT an excuse but a realization that in order to keep myself on track I need to not over do it. So instead of making a huge goal like I had last year my goal this year will be simple! I'm going to look in the mirror ever day and SMILE! I'm going to do my best to be the best me I can be. And if that "best me" comes with losing weight and feeling better in my own skin that that's what I need.
So tonight after I put the kids to bed I am not going to sit on the couch, I'm not going to sit in front of my laptop, I'm going to head out for a walk, a run, or maybe even a bike ride. Whatever strikes me at that time.
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